The Beginning - My Mothers Words

Born February 1st 1935… May 15th 2021

She was a great mother, and looked after her family well. Clean house, clean clothes and fresh cooked meals three times a day, and lots and lots of love. Cookies and cakes were baked throughout the day and devoured by night. And off to church and Sunday school every Sunday. She was the perfect mother. I can still see her standing in the large front window of our house waving to us every single day as we went off to school – waving and waving until we couldn’t see her anymore. She still did that in the Seniors complex. We would leave and she would come downstairs and stand in the large window of the complex and wave and not leave until we were out of sight. There are many wonderful childhood memories.... but that is not what this is about. This is about her strong faith and devotion to God, and her desire to have the people she loved read the Bible.

My Mother was a middle child… two older brothers and one younger brother along with two younger sisters. Grew up in Halifax and came from a distinguished family of Captains, Opera Singers, Writers, and Judges. She was raised in the Hydrostones, which were the aftermath of the Halifax Explosion. And her mother continued to live there into her 90’s. My mother was married at the early age of 18 and with a family by the time she was 19 years old. She went to several different churches when she was growing up, not really getting seriously involved in any of them. Her father worked in the Baptist church near Dalhousie for many years as a volunteer, well actually, Im not sure of that, he might have got paid. So my mother, not really involved in any one religion, was just trying them all out, until she met the father of her children and got married in the back of the Catholic Church. She was not permitted to be married in the church, because she was with child and non denominational (non catholic). Later on to please her new family and husband, she converted to the Catholic Church and has continued with them throughout her life. Funny thing was, when she was married, she was forbidden to read the bible. And she obeyed. Didn’t ask why, didn't question it, just obeyed and did what she was told. There was a huge bible on our coffee table at home, but it was never read.


My mother lived through some rather dark days. She suffered with a skin condition that put her in the hospital twice in her lifetime. She was so sick that she could not walk, the top 5 layers of her skin literally fell off her body, removing all her freckles and left it so bare to the bone that she could not walk. She also lost all the hair on her body, and all her toenails and fingernails. She was so sick that she ended up in the hospital, in terrible pain. She actually thought she was dying. This all happened in her late thirties and early forties. To this day they do not know what it was, I think it was stress, but I have no idea. She was very sick, but eventually got better, but, in the process with no hair, she had to wear a wig, and continued to wear one for many years. I never once heard her complain. This rash continued throughout her entire life. She showed me from time to time, the rash she had on the top of her legs or her stomach, on her head. I couldn’t imagine it not being painful. Still no complaints. They gave her tons of medication to try and fix things, but it only made her very sick, and the end result was no fix and now permanent damage to her ears. She then had ringing in the ears for the rest of her life. She decided on her own to not take any more medication, and didn't really trust doctors anymore. Then didn't go see a doctor for 35 years.

Anyways, so off with life she goes. There was a point in her life that she was not permitted to work.She could take a course in case something happened - like if someone died or something, but was forbidden to work at it, pretty much a waste of time. Living with an alcoholic had its toll, so once the youngest was gone it was time for my mother to move on in her life. It was one of the most difficult decisions she ever had to make. No education, no career, no money, all the things you need to leave and make it on your own. She took a huge step in seeing a lawyer first, and the lawyer made it sound like she would have no problems. Being a mother and wife of 36 years still had its rights she was told... hmmm. She told my mother that she would have money for a little house somewhere, and alimony to survive on, and not to worry, that was the law. Well it never worked out that way for her. So we helped her get a little apartment and she was on her way. Things did not work out as she planned. In later years she told me that if she any idea on how difficult it was going to be she would have had second thoughts about leaving, but it was too late at this point. So she enrolled to go back to school and learned how to be an office worker. She learned everything that she needed about computers and office work. Finished with a diploma, and off she goes to find work. She was now at the age of 54! and not an easy age to get work. She pounded the pavement day after day, going to the employment centers, Unemployment offices,etc she found lots or temp jobs but nothing full time Then she fell into the good hands of Linda and Sue.. two wonderful people that brought her into the Womens Employment Outreach Centre as a volunteer worker. It’s an agency that works with women that are looking for a career change, or are nearing unemployment, or just need training to get on in this city, and start a new life. So there she goes. She goes every single day to help out, she does everything that needs to be done to run an office, help others looking for work, and listened to their problems, points them in the right direction to get help and did not get paid. Not once did my mother receive a pay cheque for all the time and work she did for this center for many years. She was happy to be out in the real world and be helpful to others that were in the same position as her. She was a great listener, and listened to many women and their problems, along with running the office full time. At that point my mother was living off $400 a month. There was no money for extras, but she continued to pay for her apartment and drive a car to work every day. She was happy finally.

At this time of her life, she had time on her hands in the evening, and while she was in the center, she met a women that was reading the Bible and throwing questions out there to anyone that would listen. So my mother was listening to her and thought that to answer her questions or to even know what she was talking about, she would now take the time to read the Bible. No one was around to tell her she couldn’t – and she did have a Bible that she thought would be a good one to read, “The Way”. So she started one day at a time. She was free, happy and had the time to relax and just read. It took her a year to read it, and I think she had even more questions after she was finished reading it, but felt that she was touched and now was ready to learn. The next time around she read the Bible with a TV program called Quick Study, so that she could get some explanations to the whys and whats of the Bible. She felt touched by The Holy Spirit and prayed for the ability to understand. Well it was maybe the third time she went through the Bible that she finally got it, or got what she felt God wanted her to have in her life. From there, she has continued to tell people how she feels about God.... well she talks to people, that she feels, want to hear her. She never imposed on people with her personal views. But, if you ask her she would be quick to tell you.. lol.

So now she understands it, she gets it big time....and now she so wants everyone she loves to be with her in eternal life. So for years now her gift was helping others learn about God. Each of her children got a Bible for Christmas, along with other awesome gifts. The Bible is what she wanted to give. She would give us all a different one each year, not only us, but the grand children or anyone that she felt she could get through to. She always said to me, it is such a simple concept. Love God and Love your neighbor, ask for forgiveness of your sins, and change your life.. easy as that. Plus, its nice to know what went on and what is going to happen in the future, so she pressed on. We got religious cards for Easter, Birthday cards that had us blessed by God or telling us how great a life we had and we should be thankful, etc. She would try to sneak it in whenever possible. All she was ever trying to do, was tell us that she loved us very much and would miss us desperately if we did not continue in the after life with her. She would tell me stories, we would discuss what she had learned and how she felt, and she was very passionate about sharing it with others, especially the people she loved. I personally knew a fair amount, I heard a lot, I believed a lot, just never got around to reading the whole Bible. She would press on.. and on.. I have never in all the years that I have known my mother, have never known her to ever lie. She was a simple, caring, loving soul, so if she was telling me something – then just her strong integrity made me think twice about it.



So with her frustration with me, she learned to be very good at the internet, email and technology in general, she kept up with it all. So through email technology, she tried to get me to understand how very important it is AGAIN, and would send me an email once a week – just because she needed for me to know. Just some of the highlights of the Bible, in her own words, to get me closer to God and Heaven.. lol.. she was very persistent. So I would receive these emails that you will read below. These started in 2008, a terrible year in my life.. so she must have thought I needed it, and oh did I. So the emails came, one right after the other. I was so in the dark in my life, was totally in my own little world and really didn’t pay much attention to what she was sending me. I just thought, oh well here she goes again, and pulled down my blinds, closed my doors and choose to ignore my mothers emails. She just kept plugging along. Showing me how happy I could be, and that she really would love it if we would all join her in Heaven.. lol… She was just trying to help me. So, here are the emails. You will see that her heart and soul went into those emails. I have no idea who else she sent them to, but what a wonderful gift now when I look back at them.


Still I didn’t read the Bible, and she started at me again..


Well technology and the world is changing, she said. I want to get you the newest technology for reading, and then I want to give you the Bible.. electronically. If you wont read it in paper then you might read it electronically. You can read it traveling back and forth to work each day and have it read in no time at all, She was a smart women, so out she goes and gets the best of the Ereaders out there. Ones that can do anything, they had to be top of the line for her children. With one little small little request from her. Please read the bible I have given you and installed on the ereader. So with such a large item for a women that has very little money and for her to save up her money and give such extravagant gifts, I thought, hmmm she means business. She really really wants this for her children.. so what the heck.. I promised her I would read it before I read anything else on my new Ereader. That made her very happy. Finally she got one of her kids to listen to her.


Here are her exact emails to me. You might not even get it. They are short and to the point, everything she thought you should be aware of to live an eternal life. Only because she loved life and loved God, and wanted to share. So please read on, these are her words and her views and she would be happy if everyone would have what she had in life. And now eternal life, awaiting Jesus.

So I finally read the Bible at the age of 53. Was the best thing I ever received from my mother. I tried to help someone read the Bible with ease and wrote a simple version with the help of my mothers thoughts and the internet I loved every minute of it and if you want to learn a little more then you are more than welcome to read this... https://biblesummarybasics.blogspot.com/ and hopefully it will entice you to read the Bible on your own.


Now my sweet mother is gone. My mother dying left me with a huge hole… Its marking the ending of an era, that I never wanted to end. The only person in the whole wide world that loved me unconditionally and unselfishly. She loved me and showed it my entire life, told me I was beautiful, I was special, I was smart I was talented.. you name it.. it all came from my mom.. . I could always count on my mother. She loved every moment she could get from me, and I loved being with her also.. I could do no wrong in my mothers eyes..No one was ever as interested in everything I did, or as proud of me as Mom.. She was like my best friend and losing her is like losing a part of myself. My mother was a model of loving kindness… strong and faithful.. Its hard to move forward with my life when my biggest confidant, friend, biggest fan and defender is gone. .Missing your mom is something you will feel every moment of every day, even when you’re happy. You will be having a good time and all of a sudden wish she was there. All the emotions will flood you with a vengeance. Its so strange, but its also ok.. She deserves a river of tears, Lilly said.. and I agree.. I say that all the time to myself when I break down in the most unusual circumstances, I just wish I had one more day with my mother. I know where she is at, my faith is strong because of her, doesn’t mean I miss her any less. It does give me comfort though, thank goodness I will see her again. So read her words, they are not my words.. they give me comfort to just read what she took the time to write to me. Sweet thing... I so miss her ...I am so thankful for her and her persistence with me and the Bible. Any questions, feel free to ask me.. just as I asked her.. xo

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Mothers First Email to me

January 15th 2008

My Dearest Daughter:

Here I am again trying to teach you a Bible lesson. Please have patience with me as I think this is going to be long. I cannot talk as long, at this time now, but I can write much longer. Here goes.

God hates idol worship such as mediums, fortune tellers, horoscopes, séances, etc. I can’t think of them all now but you get the drift. God hates people who make idols by cutting down a tree and making an idol of it by worshiping it. Same goes for stone. God says they do not speak back to you as God did in the Old Testament. If we as a people - not you and I and most people we know - were not rebellious, so arrogant, unbelieving, disobedient, and so on – God may still be talking to us today.

Now, I want to tell you about someone I know. She went to Medjigore so many times and told me how good she felt while she was there. She even saw the young boy who was there when the three children saw the Virgin Mary. That was back in the forties. How could he still be a young boy? She also saw fire over the heads of everyone, twice, and said she took pictures of it. I said I would like to see those pictures. Never did. She is such a good person and has so much faith. I could not stand to see her used. You know how many say - what would Jesus do? – well I would say - what would God say? God would say - tell her it is a SCAM. I did in so many words but not so blunt. She was hurt and denied it. I told her to go visit the holy lands as they are so much better. Later she told me she talked to someone about it. I did not ask her who but it must have been a priest or a religious person.

She said they said it was all false and not to believe it. As I told you before at two different times I heard priests say it was the work of the devil and I believe it. Satan and his demons get into anything that is evil in our lives.

This person also told her it costs five thousand dollars to go to the Holy Lands and not to go as it is always wars and too dangerous. That I don’t believe. It is not dangerous there but is in many other places. In the city of Jerusalem there are Christians, Muslims and Jews. All Godly people and very busy and active with no violence there. It is in many other parts of Israel but not in the Holy Lands.

She has been so much better, since I told her, and understands. She signed her Christmas card – “May your heart and home overflow with the joy of God’s love”. When she found out I was not well she sent me a funny card and said she was praying for me. I am glad I told her – it is so wrong to lead people on to false stuff.

Love you, Mom

#1 God

#1

TO: Janice Gould
Subject: God

Men, inspired by God, wrote the Bible. I never knew God wrote it and all the years I went to church no one made that clear to me, Protestant or Catholic. There is so much in it to learn about life. It changed me inside in so many ways. We have a free choice to read it and anyone who can read, should read it. I found a different kind of love that can’t be found anywhere else and it feels so good. We all love our children, spouses, parents, siblings, even animals but all in a different way. I only wish I had known and had taught you, Bill, Tim and Rick how to read the Bible. I have you to thank for giving me the Bible, The Way. It makes it easily understandable. None of you know God, as I had never known anything about Him, until I read His Word. Most religions don’t want you to read it so they can control you. The Catholic Church did forbid people to read it and in the 1960’s at the Vatican II they changed and said they wanted all to read it. I personally think, so many were reading it at that time and they had no choice. It is so difficult to change older people who are so set in their ways. They know nothing, as I had been the same, not knowing anything either.

There is no perfect religion but most try to do their best. There is so much to be learned in the Word, and it is not as difficult as many try to make you think. Satan is doing his little dance every time he finds someone who will not read it. It is the beginning and the end of time and all that happens in between.

One thing God teaches us is to look at the whole world. I was so stuck in little Nova Scotia.

Bible is a Greek word for books. There are 66 books in the Bible. The name Bible is not in the Bible. Instead God uses – the Word, the Word of God, the Message, Good News, the Way, Scripture, and many other names. Jesus said search the Scriptures and you will know the truth. How true. Man has said the Bible means – Bible Intelligence Before Leaving Earth.

God gives us hope for all the good things to come. You are so fortunate, as I am, to know so much and where our next home is.
In the Bible, we have to cultivate the feeling that God is speaking to us personally. In it we will find personal messages, for us. No matter how much you go to church, it will never take the place of reading the Word. I know most teachers and preachers try to do their best.

God loves you. More then you know.

#2 Prophets

#2

TO: Janice Gould

Subject: Prophets

God had men, called Prophets, to tell the future. God talked to people then. Not now. Every time a prophecy was told – it came true. Man says about 1/3 of the Bible is prophecy. As I told you before, the last prophecy that happened and told in the New Testament was in 1948 when Israel became a nation. The big event (or prophesy) to come is the Rapture, as told to us in the New Testament by Jesus. That is when Jesus calls us to His Holy city up in the second Heaven. Remember, I had told you that God refers to the Heavens. I knew only of one at that time. Now I know of three, one where God is, the Holy City and the final one is on this earth. Maybe there are more – if you find one let me know.

I think God had Prophets at that time because people believed so much in fortune-tellers, mediums, idols and so on and worshipped them. If you want to make God angry, just believe in them. Like I had told you, people just didn’t seem to have a conscience in those days. Towards the end of the Old Testament God said, instead of circumcision, I will circumcise their hearts so they will know right from wrong. It was like they never had a conscience back then. They did so many evil and wrong things. God sure had a lot of patience with them in those days.

There are hundred’s of prophesies in the Word, most of them are in the Old Testament. And most came true in the future. I think I told you about the ones of Jesus in the Old Testament. They are in so many places, telling of the coming Messiah. They say of Him coming in the future, sold for thirty pieces of silver, where He is to be born and that He will die on a tree. If you didn’t know the New Testament you would think He would die by hanging not a wooden cross. There are many other prophesies in the Old Testament about Jesus.

Not all prophets were perfect and some made mistakes. They are human. Like Jonah, he was a racist. He was a Jew (or they called them Hebrews in those days). God told him to go to Nineveh (now called Iran), and tell the Gentiles or unbelievers (Arab) people to repent or God would destroy them. Jonah did not want to tell the Arabs, so he ran in the opposite direction. You know the rest of the story and how the big fish swallowed him and not a whale as man says. God saved the people, as they all repented, when Jonah said if they didn’t God would kill them all. Jonah was left sulking under a tree, as he didn’t want them saved. God loves all people and wants to save them all.

#3 The Holy City

#3
TO: Janice Gould
Subject: The Holy City

Jerusalem, in Israel, is the city of God, on earth. God says it, not me. All three religions, the Jews, Muslims and Christians claim it as their city of God.

Israel is just a dot on the world map but it is the only land in the world that God claimed and gave it to Abraham’s descendents. That includes us too, as you can find out later on in God’s book.

There is another city of God that Jesus has built, in the sky, and in time we Christians, will all be in there. God says the size of it in cubits, which I don’t understand. Man says it is about two-thirds the size of the U.S. and is a square. Just as long, wide and tall. Never the less, it is huge. Just try to imagine looking up that far. That is difficult to comprehend. But so is a lot in the book that God inspired. It is also called the New City of Jerusalem, the Holy City of God, the Kingdom of God and many other names I can’t think of at the moment. As of now, man has said all the people living in the world, could fit into the state of Texas.
Jesus took the apostle, Paul up to see the stunning city. Paul said there are no words to describe it here on earth, as it is so beautiful. Besides that, Jesus would not allow him to tell us.

The Holy City is a gigantic city in space and so magnificent. God says there will be no more sin in that city. We can share in this new Kingdom and we must. There will be so much room for everyone. It is too much to miss. This will come to the earth after the millennium.

Every time we say the Our Father prayer, Jesus taught us, we ask Him – Thy Kingdom Come. We are always asking Jesus to come and take us up to that city. There are a lot of people in a day saying that prayer.
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#4 Dying

#4
TO: Janice Gould
Subject: Dying

It is not so bad after you read about it. We just go to sleep, our and body and soul sleeps. Then we wake up and go to our real home. It is just like now when we go to sleep. We don’t see or hear anything. It is strange, when we wake up, there are all kinds of noises – stereo, T.V. or whatever and we wonder how we slept through all that noise. We don’t even know how long we slept and have to look at a clock as to whether it was twenty minutes or hours. Now I know where they got the story of Sleeping Beauty from. The Bible.

Remember, Jesus had brought back a girl and a boy after they had died. He also, brought Lazarus back and deliberately left Lazarus in the ground for four days just to prove that he was only sleeping. And none of them had any near death experiences to talk about. That is just more of man’s fantasies. Now I know why they put R.I.P. (rest in peace) on tombstones in the cemetery. I could never figure that one out years ago.
Many say when we die, our bodies die and our souls go to heaven. I don’t know where they get that. I never found God saying anything to that intention.

In the time of Adam and Eve it was because of them, disobeying God and the devil temping them, that death came about. God never wanted us to die. In time, God will do away with death and we will never die again.
It is strange how medical science says they saved someone’s life. They aren’t saved, they will still die, and they just prolonged their life. Miracles – now that is a different thing. So many miracles Jesus performed.

#5 The Resurrection

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TO: Janice Gould
Subject: The Ressurection

As I said, this is the next big event in God’s time. It can happen any minute or maybe many years from now. Myself, I go along with most of the Bible readers and think it is very soon and will be after the Tribulation. There are too may signs. One of the big things, to me, is Russia being so close to the Iranians and China. Those are the ones who are going to attack Israel in the last days. I know you don’t follow the news but whenever anything goes on in Israel, take notice.

Anyway, in when the Resurrection happens, all those who have died or are sleeping and believed in Jesus, as the Son of God, will rise up. We, who are still alive and believe, will join them in the clouds with Jesus. Our human bodies will be changed to our liking and be spiritual bodies. We also will be given new homes to have our friends in. I don’t think there will be any such thing as a mortgage. There will be food in this home on earth, but none on the Heaven on earth. Hooray ! No more cooking. Some think of this as the resurrection, but it is not. No one on earth will see Jesus at this time but everyone will see Him at his second coming. After the Tribulation.

Most say the rapture takes place in the early part of the book of Revelation. It is confusing to me and seems to take place later on in Revelation. That is only my opinion. If you read it, let me know what you think.

The First resurrection will be the most glorious day in history.

#6 Tribulation

#6
TO: Janice Gould
Subject: The Tribulation

The Tribulation

The Tribulation lasts for 7 years. There will be a peace treaty signed in Israel but after 3 ½ years Satan enters into a person who signed the treaty. Or he has been there all the time as a person. But God says he comes up out of the Mediterranean and that is where the European Union is. That is when all Hell breaks out on earth. Satan knows there is only a little time left to do his dirty work. There is too much to tell you at this time but maybe you will read the book that God wrote.

There will still be believers here on earth, maybe they changed and believed in that short time, as there are two witnesses who are prophets of God and come and tell the people what is going on. Everyone will see them. Again, it will probably be through T.V. Do you know Satan has them killed and put on display? God then brings them back to life and raises them up to Heaven. This is all during Tribulation.

There are also 144,000 Jews who convert to Christianity, turn in their ways of thinking and start to teach the people as to what is going on. This, again is the way I see it and maybe you will see it differently.

Satan really fools the people with all his actions, telling everyone he is God and becomes a great dictator. He brings the false prophet who was killed, back to life, does many things that people think he is God himself. He even brings down fire from Heaven. As I told you before, he has people put a sign on their right hand and forehead and without it you are unable to buy or sell anything. When I first read that I thought it would have to be a tattoo but now they can put in a chip. It was scary when I first found out they were putting chips in animals or persons with medical problems. You cannot have everlasting life if you have the sign of the beast.

That is when I hope the people will take off to the hills until Jesus comes back. They are going to shoot anyone who believes in Jesus, anywhere in the world. God said it is better to say you believe, die and go to Heaven and save your soul than to go to Hell. God said it and it makes sense. Life is so short here on earth compared to living forever in Heaven. Jesus does come back and with all of us to put a stop to everything that is going on. This is the second coming and every eye will see Him.

Remember, if anyone comes and says he is Jesus or God, he is lying. Jesus will not put a foot on this earth until after the Tribulation.

#7 The Millennium

#7

TO: Janice Gould
Subject: The Millennium

Jesus then reigns on earth for the millennium (a thousand years). He reigns in the Temple in Jerusalem. All the earth is at peace as Jesus chained up Satan and his fallen angels for the thousand years. Don’t ask me where we will be, it doesn’t say. I suppose we will be with Jesus. Read the Book and let me know.

I know that the people on earth will be going about their business, living and dying. Jesus will ask the people to come to the temple once a year for the Feast of Tabernacles (another thing I will tell you as it is too long for now). The nations that do not come will be sorry, as Jesus will stop the rain from going there. That means no food. I just can’t imagine the people not going after all that has happened. But it will happen. God said so.

After the thousand years, Jesus will release Satan and his demons, to test out the people again. Can you imagine that, after all that has been going on.

Then He will raise all the dead and all will be judged. Not us, who are already with Jesus and in good terms with God. He will then cast Satan and his demons into the lake of fire and all evil people. I personally don’t think many will join Satan, as God wants all his children to be with Him. That city in the sky is going to hold a lot of people, all those who were ever born. This is called the second death.

#8 Heaven

#8

TO: Janice Gould
Subject: Heaven

God is going to burn up the earth. It doesn’t say where we will be, again but I think it is still that castle in the sky. The sun, moon, and stars, will be gone. Also, as I told you the ocean. God is going to throw all our sins in the oceans and make them disappear. It says so in the Psalms and also the deserts will be beautiful gardens, no weeds !, with streams and rivers running through. Even mountains will be leveled. No islands. But lakes and rivers.

I can’t tell you where anything is in the Bible as it is all over the place. It is difficult to put it all together, at first, but then things start to come into place. Hairs stand up in your arms. You talk about goose bumps, you get them so many times as you study the Word. So many good things.

Many say, even good preachers, we will go straight to Heaven after we die. I don’t know where they get this from. I never found it.

Another thing Jesus said to the thief on the other cross is, “I tell you this, today you will be with me in Paradise” In the earlier times they never had punctuation. I think they had the comma in the wrong place after they rewrote the Word. I say it should have read, “I tell you this today, you will be with me in Paradise.” I even questioned it in my mind years ago. As I knew Jesus stayed here, after His resurrection, on earth for 40 days teaching the disciples and did not go directly to Heaven.

Satan has many thinking we will only be playing harps and floating around on clouds. He tries to make it so boring but it is not true. We will be busy doing things we like.

God is going to make a new earth and Heaven. Don’t let anyone tell you the earth is going to end. It isn’t. God said so. There may be an asteroid hit the earth but that could be during the Millennium. Now come the good parts. God is going to take away our tears and we will never have pain again. God is going to give us a special light on the earth and we will never be in the dark again. We will never be tired and need sleep. There will be no time, we will live forever. Isn’t that amazing. We are going to be busy doing things we like – what I don’t know. God didn’t tell us. It will be one huge garden all over the earth and the animals will be tame. God’s plan is to restore to us all that Adam lost. The Desert will flower, the oceans will be gone, the mountains will be gone but there will still be rivers and streams.

All the glories of a perfect life on a perfect earth. Satan and sin interrupted God’s plan. The plan will be carried out. God said so. It will finally be so good to be home with no problems and with all my family and friends.

#9 Angels and Demons

#9

TO: Janice Gould
Subject: Angels and Demons


We do not know when God made the angels. Long before He made us. After the trick Satan pulled on Him I guess He decided to make us. Only guessing. The devil isn’t a weird person in a red suit with horns and a pitchfork. Man made that up. Just like man makes God look like an old man in a long gown with a sickle in His hand. I can never truly try to imagine what God looks like.
God says He gave the devil the name of Lucifer and made him the most beautiful angel of all the angels. Beautiful isn’t the name I would give a turncoat angel but I can’t argue with God. The angels must go by rank as God called Lucifer, Michael, and Gabriel His archangels. The only three mentioned, by name, by God.

Satan went against God and wanted to be God and convinced one third of the angels to go with him. How many angels there are is any ones guess. Maybe, as man guesses, millions.


God allows Lucifer and his demons to come back and forth from the earth to Heaven, even now. Can you imagine? They still have so much power. But some day that will be all gone. On judgement day there will be a second death for evil ones. They will be away from God and never be able to contact God again.

Someday we will travel at the speed of light like the angels do it now. We will visit the expansive universe and understand every thing no human can comprehend.

God is testing us humans. I want all the people I know, to pass that test.

We are not angels – we are humans. Someday, God will give us knowledge beyond our understanding. I believe in time we will be so much smarter than the angels as God wants us to judge the angels in the last days. That, too, is hard to grasp. So when you hear a person say mom is an angel up in Heaven looking down at us, don’t believe it. God must just shake His head and say, such foolishness. But it doesn’t hurt anyone.
God sends the good angels to earth as men. Maybe women too. Who knows? Only God. Jesus said there are many angels walking about us, in a crowd, but we do not know them. They would not have names and be known to us. Who knows how many we have passed by?
When bad things happen to good people for no reason at all, they say it is the will of God. When we die they say it is the time to go. These two things have nothing to do with God. They are the work of Satan.

In the last days (before the tribulation) God is going to boot Satan out of Heaven. Satan is going to either enter into a man, like he did with Judas or he is going to grow up as a man somewhere in Europe. I am not sure. Anyway, that is where God said he would be coming from. The Mediterranean.

Satan is going to be a charmer, a dictator, be so knowledgeable, and have everything going for him, especially the power he has. He is going to have the whole world believe he is God and deceive them. Remember this is the Tribulation and we will not be here. He will even bring down fire from Heaven. He will try to lure the wicked into his web. He knows he has only a little time left and hates all humans.

#10 Odds and Ends

#10

TO: Janice Gould
Subject: Odds and Ends

I can’t stress it enough that you have to read the Old Testament to know God. We have a free choice and all our ways in which we are to live, are in the Word. All religions claim He is all love and good. Of course, He is. But they don’t tell you He gets angry, jealous, is strict, at times turns His back on us, divorces us and many other things. He is our disciplinary Father and many can’t accept that. I had been angry at the churches for a long time but came to realize if they started telling those things, no one would go to church. Too bad but we are such a stubborn people. God only wants us to turn to Him and live eternally with Him.

There are three people who God took up to Heaven, Enoch, Elijah and of course Jesus. Since I have read until the end of the bible - God says there is no one in Heaven. Only Jesus. I believe God took Enoch and Elijah to another place on earth.

One thing I told you was wrong, is that you will pass me in the line to get through the pearly gates where Peter is because you are much better than me. Wrong. Maybe you are better but there is no St. Peter sitting at the pearly gates. Man’s story again.

We all go up together at the same time, in the resurrection. There is a second resurrection after Jesus has been here, after the thousand years, (the millennium) trying to clean up the mess on earth. All others who never knew Jesus, mostly from the Old Testament times or never believed in Him will be raised after the thousand years and then judgement comes. Can you imagine? All persons who were ever born. God says in that time all knees will bend. If all kneel down to God, to me, it says all must have repented and will be saved. Just wonderful guessing.

Another is when Jesus said, don’t let Me come back and find you naked. I said I would have to wear a nightgown at night, and put up with the night sweats. I am sure what he means is, don’t let Me come back and find us in sins. He doesn’t care about these bodies of ours. They are not the real ones. Also, He says don’t let me come back and find you drunk. If we are in sin or drunk we will not be raised up at that time. The time of the Resurrection.

I could never figure out why Satan tried to tempt Jesus with giving Him the earth, if He only would bow down to Satan. I thought who would ever want to come back to this earth, when there is a Heaven He can go to. Now I know why, as God is giving the earth to Jesus to rule and reign forever. Then it will be Heaven on earth.

In the Word, in the Old Testament, God refers to the Law. It means the Ten Commandments. But did you know there are 613 laws that God gave us? Again that is what man says, he has counted and I do believe that, as there are a lot of them. God gave them to us to make things better for us in the world.

They complain because they are taking down the Ten Commandments in government and law buildings. They should be in our churches. No one ever says that. The Jews have them posted up in their synagogues.

In China and many other nations if they are caught with the Word of God they are shot or put in jail. They have underground churches where they can go. China is supposed to have the fastest growing Christians, more than any other place in the world, as of now. Here, we have the freedom to read it and very few do. Only fifteen minutes a day will take you through it in a year. It will change you so much but it took me a long time and a lot of reading. It is so worth it. God can change you and it is so amazing how it changes you inside. No man can do that.

As I told you before I could not find any Purgatory and don’t know what they are talking about.

I didn’t think I would get to a second page. Who am I kidding? There is so much to tell you. But I am trying to make this brief. It is just that they don’t tell you anything in the churches.

There is a secular society and it is growing too fast. They are people who are neither an atheist nor a Christian. I just can’t understand how they can exist without any kind of religion. They have no faith or hope and mostly do not know the love of Jesus that He gives us. Just like that young guy said to you, do you want the cross or the one with the man on it. Innocent people who don’t know the difference.

God said there is no one who is not a sinner. Not one person and that is why we have to confess to Him through Jesus in order to get to Heaven.

God says in heaven He will wipe away every tear and we will jump for joy, never be tired again or feel pain and many other things. In one place it says we will be young and never grow old or die again. Scientists have checked many dead bodies and no matter how young or old they are, none have a DNA over 35 years of age.

I am not saying much about Jesus and the wonderful things he did, as you know so much about Him, from church mostly.

As Jesus says in the end times, we will be like the people in Noah’s time – all evil going on in the world. It is coming to that. The people are getting worse and worse, not only in our country but also all over the world, just like in Noah’s day.
If everyone read the Torah (Jewish), Qaran or sometimes-spelled Koran (Muslim) and the Bible it would be such a better world to live in. All believe in the same God and love.

Us Christians, or anyone, all we have to do is believe in God, who sent his son to earth to save us and repent. It is so simple.

What I am telling you does not even touch on the many things in the Scriptures. Just the basics. There is so much to learn and if I can do it, anyone can. No man could ever write the Word, as there is so much in it. Only God could give us so much information in one book. I went through it for three years, as I told you before, with Quick Study. They are a non-religious group and they even went through the Catholic Bible one year. The Bibles are all the same – different words – but the same meaning. I don’t think Quick Study is on in this area anymore. They were good but even they could only touch on little parts each day. I had to read it in full myself.

I just realized I never really said any thing about the Temple. I will have to start a new page because the Temple is very important.

#11 Last Email - The Temple

#11

TO: Janice Gould
Subject: The Temple

The first church was called the tabernacle. God had the people build it while they were in the desert with Moses. It was a place where all people could go to and pray. It was very large, made of a material like canvas but could be folded up and moved when they were ready to move on. There is too much to tell you about it but you can read about it. I don’t know what happened to the tabernacle after they got to the Promised Land (Israel).

In the Tabernacle, there was the Ark of the Covenant (like a box) which had in it, the ten commandments written in stone, by God, a piece of manna (God gave them as food), Arran’s (Moses’ brother) staff which had a bud blooming on it. The real Ark of the Covenant is in Heaven. But the one on earth disappeared and no one knows where it is. Many think it was taken to Africa, as during one of the wars in Israel, many Jewish priests took off to Africa. Do you know, right now the Catholic Church has a replica of the Ark of the of the Covenant circulating around to the different churches in Canada? It is in Halifax at this time and if I had never read the Word I would have not even known what it is. Now you know also. As I have said the churches don’t teach us enough.

Many, many, years later, Solomon, King David’s son had the first temple built. It was destroyed. So was the next one. The third one will be built during tribulation, before Jesus comes to earth. Jesus told the people that the temple would be destroyed and it happened in 70 AD after Jesus was gone.

The Muslim’s built their mosque on the same place where the temple had been. How that happened I don’t know but it would be in the history books. Whenever you see a picture of Jerusalem you can see the mosque in the centre of the city, called the Dome of the Rock, with its big yellow dome. The Muslim’s say that is where Mohammed died and was buried. It is a very holy place to them.

The Jews are waiting for the Messiah to come (first time to them) and they say He will come to the temple. Even we Christians believe that. The Jews believe it has to be built before He will come. They offered to move the mosque brick by brick but the Muslim’s refused. The Jews say the time is very near to when He is coming. They even have guards all around the mosque to protect it from their own people. Guards just recently caught two men (Jews) going in with explosives to blow it up. That would really start a big war. This Mosque (Dome) was built between the old and new testament.

The Jews have all the plans to build the temple and all that goes into it.

Somehow, Satan ends up in the temple when he is in power. The Bible doesn’t tell us how but he must have had it built during the Tribulation. If it is where the Dome of the Rock is, no wonder there will be so much trouble in the world, in the future. He must really get the Arabs angry. Only, my opinion.

When Jesus comes back He will rule the world, for a thousand years, from the Temple. I would think it would be a different Temple. I can’t see Him ruling from the one Satan was in. Anyway, I think that one is destroyed also. Jesus will reign and there will be no more wars. Wonderful, isn’t it. Every year He will ask the people to come to Jerusalem for the Feast of the Tabernacles. Now, you know what the Tabernacle is. Those nations that do not come, Jesus will punish them. In what way it doesn’t say. Maybe, as I said before, holding back rain and no food for them. Can you imagine, not coming to the Temple, after all that has happened. I can’t.

There is so much to learn in God’s Word. Every question you wanted to ask is there. But don’t ask me, as I don’t know where they are, only know about them. I have just told you things you should be told by man but most won’t touch on those subjects.

After you read the Scriptures you will know whom you can trust in the churches. There are so many phonies out there. Remember when Jesus said beware of wolves in sheep’s clothing. He meant the Pharisee’s who were the top priests in their time but did not teach the way they should have. All they wanted was praise and the best of everything and knew people then did not read and the religious leaders could control them. So like today. People don’t change only time does. As I said, there are many good ones out there and only a few bad ones.

At times I may have repeated myself as I did this over a period of time. I am not a teacher or a preacher and would not know how to do either. I may make mistakes but am honestly telling you how I see it and God knows that.